Becoming a working mum…
So I’ve had a bit of a whirlwind week or 2! One minute I was a stay at home mum and the next I was contemplating full time working mum life!
On Friday 7th July, I received a phone call from an agency saying that they’d found my CV online. They told me they had a potential job that seemed suitable. They sent my CV to the law firm in question and I thought nothing more of it – usually I end up never hearing anything again! Well, within 2 hours I had a call back asking if I could go for an interview the following Monday – as in a couple of days later!!
I was in shock and suddenly thrown into a bit of a panic. Obviously I said yes and sorted someone to watch Stanley. I felt proud and anxious at the same time. It was a crazy afternoon. I spent the whole weekend panicking about the interview, having had 16 months out of any professional setting.
Monday rolled around and the nerves were insane. Mum guilt reared its ugly head too. Yep, I felt guilty for even going to a job interview. It was a full time position and the mum guilt reminded me of that frequently. But I sucked it up and told myself that it’s for the best. It means I can build my career that I’ve worked damn hard for. It means Stanley can socialise more, which he loves. And it means I can start earning some money so we can do more things as a family!
Going for an interview is always nerve-wracking. But after 16 months of being in ‘mum mode’ and not ‘professional mode’, I found it even harder and was terrified of saying something stupid!
But luckily I didn’t. I soon settled into the conversation and just spoke honestly about my journey through university, work and motherhood. I spoke openly about how I knew it was going to be hard to leave him and why I feel ready. It turned out to be a great interview and I actually left feeling really confident and pleased. And…
I got the job!
Well on Thursday 12th I received a phone call offering me the job! In the space of 6 days I was told about a job, had an interview and offered the role! It was crazy!
I start tomorrow and I’ll be working Monday – Friday and I’m full of mixed emotions.
I’m nervous about meeting lots of new people, and having to learn new things. I’m scared of making mistakes and finding it hard. It also scares me thinking about how I’m going to settle into a new routine of being a working mum. But these things also excite me, as I’ve always loved a challenge. I’m looking forward to rebuilding my career and doing something for me again. To having grown-up conversations and hot coffee. I’m looking forward to being able to eat lunch and not have to share it with a toddler.
But, on the flip side, I’m heartbroken that I won’t have my grumpy, funny little side-kick in my shadow 24/7. I feel so weird at the prospect of leaving him 5 days a week and not being at home with him all the time. But I’ve had the best, craziest 16 months with him and I feel lucky that I’ve been able to have that time with him.
I know it’s going to be hard to start with, and I’m sure I’ll do my fair share of crying!! But, this is a positive and I know me and Stanley will find our routine soon enough!
I’ve spent the last week making the most of my time with Stanley and also making the most of my freedom before I’m back in the working world!!
Stanley’s settling in sessions…
Stanley had 3 settling in sessions at his nursery last week. The first was 2 hours, the 2nd 4 hours and the last one was 7. He bawled his eyes out on the last one when I left! It was absolutely heartbreaking and he’s been super clingy with me since. I’m dreading dropping him off tomorrow. The staff told me he’d been teary in the day but did play with other children and napped and ate in between so that’s a good sign. He’s so sociable, I know once he’s used to being there he’ll love it! But these next few weeks are definitely going to be tough on both of us!
He’s also decided this weekend has been the perfect time to stop sleeping through! Kids sure do have perfect bloody timing don’t they?! So fingers crossed he sleeps for me tonight, and I’m going to go and do some pampering so I feel my best in the morning!!
Any working mamas reading this? Let me know how you felt when you started work and had to change your routine! Or maybe your about to start this journey too?! Talk to me in the comments!